the fear of the Lord

my entire world seems to be upside down. every bone in my body trembles in the fear of the Lord and the wrath i deserve. I do not deserve anything. i deserve no mercy. i deserve his wrath and that is it. why Lord are you so merciful? why are you so loving? i can not fathom a love that will love me even when i have been so disobedient. i crave to bring you honor and glory through my actions, thoughts, and words. why do i fail you every single day? why cant i seem to get it right... ever? its so frustrating. i am beyond exhausted physically, emotionally, spiritually. satan taunts me because i let him hold that kind of power over me. just when i finally feel freedom and peace or become spiritually excited he laughs. kicks me in the face so that i fall right back into the pile of sin i have waiting for me on the ground. its a cirle and a cycle i have yet to get out of. the prayer on my heart right now is this...



O lord bless me
and keep me

Cause your face to shine on me
Lord me gracious
with the light of your counteness
give me peace

for i live only to see your face
so shine on me
for i live only to see your face
so shine on me

o lord bless me
and keep me

cause your face to shine on me
lord be gracious
give me pace

for i live only to see your face
so shine on me
for i live only to see your face
so shine on me

let the light of your face shine down on my heart
and let me feel it
let the light of your face shine down on my heart
and let meee feeel it

and let me feel it Lord
let me feeel it

i want to feel your love and your presence god

o lord bless me
and keep me

cause your face to shine on me
Lord me gracious with the light of your counteness
give me peace
for i live only to see your face
so shine on me
for i live only to see your face
so shine on me


FOR I LIVE ONLY TO SEE YOUR FACE SO SHINE ON ME
FOR I LIVE ONLY, I LIVE ONLY, TO SEE YOUR FACE SO SHINE ON ME

SO SHINE ON ME
YOUR WHAT I LIVE FOR

LET THE LIGHT OF YOUR FACE SHINE DOWNNN GOD