I feel like i have completely changed directions in the last few days. I thought i had a plan- i thought i knew how to fix myself and my shattered life but i didnt. its funny how a 19 year old girl can think she has everything all figured out when in reality she is thinking through fogged vision and making decisions without the help of someone in a better state of mind. my parents got a hold of me this weekend. needless to say- they layed down the law and had some of their own ideas to get me back on my feet. none of which i am all that thrilled about- but i do think it will be a good thing for me in the long run and i want to trust that they truely just care and want so badly to see me come out of the pain i have been in.

So blessed to have loving parents, strict or not strict.

I am so excited about the possibility of actually making some progress.

I hope to blog more often but maybe just shorter entries.

Goodnight