so today i had my first day at work at sephora. it was good and easy enough. im just glad to be doing something productive with my time. i want to make something of myself and quite being lazzy bad so i figured getting a job is a good start. ha 

goals for the upcoming week: work hard, serve my family, encourage my friends, be still and listen, use my talents in some way or another for the Lord and the bringing of his kingdom, have some sort of new experience.

im working on trying to become a well-rounded person so im also taking up spanish this coming semester. i want to be bilingual- cause german freshman year of high school didnt stick :(

my grades this semester were poor and to be honest, unacceptable. so another goal- more long term- is step UP my game next semester cause a repeat of this past one will not allow be to stay at auburn.

I feel like the Lord has me at auburn for a very particular reason- seeing that my whole family are alabama fans and im not all that sure why exactly im at auburn but i know without a doubt its where i am suppose to be so i want to begin seeking out my purpose there and discovering what the Lord has for me at auburn and in what ways i am going to make a difference. 

My biggest fear is dying having lived a selfish life for myself and leaving nothing behind me, having done nothing to bring forth the Lords kingdom, and having impacted no-one.

This is such a scattered entry but its just some thoughts and ideas i need to get jotted down. 

*There is just a lot bigger things happening out there beyond my problems and the trivial things i get caught up in and i want to stop dwelling in today and start living in and working towards the big picture. i want to be driven and diligent and persistant and focused. i want a plan and a goal and i want to accomplish it. i want to read some books and write more poetry and explore possibilities and discover new interests of mine. 

i want to invest in other people and fit everything i can into every single day- im sick of all the wasted time in my life.

these are all long shot goals and not all 100% attainable but this is a standard i want to begin holding myself to because im tired of settling for less and im tired of not making the most out of my time, talents, and abilities. i want to be all i can be and all the Lord wants me to be.

here it goes...