these past few days have been interesting to say the least. sunday night and then last night did not go according to the plan. ughhh HATE.

Lord why is it so hard? why do i continue running and pursuing my own plan when i know you have so much more for me? why do i continue to live in disobedience when i so clearly know that joy is only ever going to come from walking with you and following you? i want to know you, Lord. i want become a woman after your heart. the world just appears so appealing so many times and because i fail to plan against temptations, i plan to fail. this is exactly what i have done. Lord i am so sorry for being selfish and rebellious. tame my wild heart, Lord. only you have the power to conform my life and take over my heart. it is not going to be something i can just do Lord i am to weak...

INTERVENE

here i am at 6:15am bloggin because i dont know what time i go to work today and im scared about over sleeping... its either 730 or 1230 but i am have to go ahead and get ready just in case so that i can call around 715 and find out. ha ugh. o well- i need to work on getting up earlier and getting my days started sooner than i have been anyways. days i dont work i just never wake up it seems.